Candidly recounting her “darkest time,” Weirich’s newest release is a story of hope and the goodness of God.
Christian singer-songwriter Katy Weirich showcases strength amidst struggle in her newest release, “Blue Jay.” Singing about her experience with severe postpartum depression and anxiety after her second child, Weirich recalls a feeling of utter hopelessness. “I was nearly hospitalized and was having panic attacks causing me to collapse and I longed to go to sleep and not wake up,” she explains.
The song recounts her hardship as she pleads to God for a “glimpse of you.” As expected, God delivered, and never in the way she expected. After a lengthy period of time during her recovery she began to see blue jays at just the right time in her day-to-day activities that would give her a glimpse of strength and encouragement to persevere.
When on a trip in Scotland after her recovery, Weirich remembers seeing an entire flock of blue jays, which finally inspired her to write this song. She says the blue jays signified to her “a hug from God and a tangible reminder that He saw me where I was and that I just had to keep going and to trust that He was right there beside me and would not leave.”
As Weirich gains strength, the song builds momentum. “You are carrying me, sustaining me. You are healing me, I will be free” she sings with rising confidence throughout the rest of the song.
In this way, “Blue Jays” is an authentic representation of the struggles of life and keeping the faith amidst darkness. Weirich doesn’t sugar coat the pain, but she also doesn’t discount the miracle. She shares that when she got back from her trip, she flipped to the next page on her calendar which had a photo from the exact place in Scotland she had just visited.
“It was a sign to me that God had gotten me through. He never left me, not even for a minute,” she adds. Weaving both the story of the blue jays and scripture into the song, Weirich explains that a lot of inspiration came from Job and wanting to “showcase the quality of God” which is “El Roi,” meaning “the God who sees me.”
“Blue Jay” is one single to come out as part of her upcoming EP Out of the Blue set to release June 17. “This song will forever remind me how I was carried and sustained by the Lord. I honestly don’t know if I’d be alive today if I didn’t know Jesus Christ.”
“Blue Jay,” a song that showcases the quality of God, El Roi, which means “the God who sees me” (Genesis 16), holds a special meaning for Weirich. “After my recovery from postpartum depression, I would always see these Blue Jays. Each time I saw one, it felt like a hug from the Lord. Then I went on a big family trip to Scotland with my mom’s family.
We were driving through the country and I was looking out the window and saw a flock of Blue Jays. I didn’t even know they could flock like that. When I got back home, I flipped over my Oswald Chambers daily calendar and was surprised to see the photos on the back. They were pictures of the very places in Scotland where we’d just visited. It was a sign to me that God had gotten me through. He never left me, not even for a minute.”